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That Terrible Cycle

Submitted entry: I don’t know if I’ve shared witheveryone how things have been going with my work on finding my lifepurpose with Julie Jordan Scott butlet me take a few minutes to say it’s going really well. She’s anexcellent coach and has helped me to the point where I have got somethingof a handle on my life purpose. And the surprise that will probably notbe a surprise to everyone else is that it is not a career pathexplicitly. In my entry (I forget which one) just after I got back fromFlorida and was mentioning that I felt that most of what I did was withoutpassion and I missed having that sense of purpose I particularly meant myjob. I was hoping to find a job that I would enjoy that would also besomething that I felt really 100% into and agreed with ethically and thatI felt was actually helping others. And the surprise is that I didn’texplicitly come up with a purpose that was also a career. I know - not asurprise is it? My purpose to paraphrase is to do my best to beself-knowlegable and mindful and be constantly striving to be the bestperson and parent I can be and to share the successes and failures in thateffort with as many people as I can. In other words, I’ve been trying todo that all along with this journal and the life I’m leading.

But I did decide to focus a bitmore and have started writing some articles for Themestream which will focus on thechanges I’m making in my life, opinion on parenting and will also as oftenas possible include some of the travel writing I hope to do about ourtravels with Paul.

My first article is written.

Things here have been great despiteus all being down with a cold. Unlike the past couple colds which wipedus all out (except Paul sometimes making for a difficult time) this onejust makes us cough and sneeze and keeps our energy levels up. I was ableto get wood and water and do everything I normally do despite having it -just not as much as usual.

We’ve been home much of the timethis week which is great - seems like we go through phases where we’reaway from the yurt several days a week. Last week we got in to thatterrible cycle where the yurt just got messed up at night when we gothome, a little more messed up in the morning and then we’d go somewhere sowe wouldn’t have time to clean. So now the yurt’s pretty clean and as wewent shopping we’ve managed to make lots of good meals at home too.Tonight I think I’ll make a quick Thai yellow curry of tofu and rice.It’s easy with pre-made curry paste and canned coconut milk. It’s almostas easy as Kraft macaroni and cheese but so much tastier and better foryou.

Speaking of tofu I’ve made anothercommitment to myself. I’m going back to being vegetarian now - and thistime I mean it *grin*. I got lax when we first got here as it was easy tobe lazy and eat whatever we wanted in town (we rarely ate meat here at theyurt - it was dining out where we were bad). I’ve been feeling guilty fora while for eating meat but lacked the willpower to change. Then Iremembered what pushed me over the edge last time - actually reading booksabout the ethics (or lack thereof) of eating meat and once again I feellike it’s a bad idea health-wise, bad for the animals and bad for worldhunger for me to eat meat. Okay, I always knew that but I’m choosing topay attention to that again this time.

And in the interests of getting thearticle, my bio and and this entry up I’m going to end this here and maybewrite more later.

The silence is deafening.

Good Provider?